I Think I'll try defying gravity...

.....you'll never bring me down.
Defying Gravity - Wicked.

Well, here I am again, blogging. I didnt think Id see this coming for a while. So much has happened in the last month its hard to fit it all in.

October
It was my 17th birthday on the 17th of october. I had the day off college and had gone to the swan at forton for my birthday lunch with mum, donna, mark and marks mum and baby finlay. In the evening my dad and I went to pick up Nicky from Manchester as I had invited her to stay with us for my birthday weekend. It was so great to see her again, and the next day we boarded a cramped train to Birmingham for a shopping spree at the bullring. We had an awesome time comprising of lots of shopping, gawping at £59 Gucci baby gro's in Selfridges, and seeing live bands outside as part of this Festibull event that was taking place. It was great!

Ok so I had an awesome birthday weekend, but it was the completle opposite at New College. So you might have seen my blog about my first week at New College and got the impression it was all hunky-dory...and it was! I wont deny that. But over the course of October I had so many problems with friends, not feeling accepted and had lost all interest in wanting to work. I had to move media groups because I couldnt cope with it, and had faced stress after stress.

So I carried on, thinking ah It will get better....I'll meet new people and such. So I kept optimistic.

Last week I went on a trip to London with the english department and dont get me wrong it was an amazing trip. We visited the natural history museum, science museum, war museum, walked around London after catching hundreds of tube's...saw 2 amazing shows including Wicked which was the highlight of this trip and the song from it called "Defying Gravity" became my number 1 song at the moment....I had an amazing time. But during the way home, I had a thought to myself. This was great, showing people around London (I had been the week before) ...leading people....I didnt want to go back to college and get back into the hard slog of A-Levels. This, along with everything else eventually lead to days of worry, sadness and despair on what to do. It came to the decision that I was to leave college and start something new, something pratical that I could get stuck into and...earn money.

So if anyone reads this, It has been a very interesting month...well year for me. I passed all my GCSE's...got to college..couldnt handle it and now im off on something completley different.

I hope I can see what is right for me not what is right for everyone else. Things that I thought were going to suit me have turned out the opposite way, and friends I thought I had...well they werent friends in the end.

So. I guess thats a MAJOR update.

Rachel