Its the early hours of the morning

of the fourth of November 2009...

Im sitting at my computer talking to one of my american cousins Heather, listening to some random tv programme but not watching it...and feeling wider awake than ever...I should be sleeping ! But as my recent bed time has been 4 in the morning then how am I supposed to feel tired now?
*sigh*

A lots happened lately, I quit my job because I couldnt face going back after the manager gave me a mouthful down the phone on how crap I was as an employee so I ended slamming the phone down shouting "fuck you bitch. Good times. Im a week away from completing my NVQ in Childcare and officially not earning any money whatsoever....yes Im in that dreaded state of unemployment and it aint pretty.

So...Im just doing nothing everyday...I hate it..no money coming in , nothing to do except get shouted at by my brother who is also unemployed and clean up for my mum, spend endless hours on facebook and watching movies.
The way I have to watch DVD's in my room is a little different from everyone else...well most people I know. I have my desk next to my bed, and my tv is tiny and doesnt come with a DVD player plugged in. The only option I have is to turn my computer monitor around so it faces my bed, move the speakers...keyboard..mouse etc and play my dvds through my computer. This seems to work well until..
1. The monitor automatically switches off after 30 minutes to conserve energy which involves my film being rudely interrupted and having to stumble out of my cosy bed to wiggle the mouse so it comes back to life.
2. The speakers fall down.
3. The pc jams etc

So I guess its not the best method..but its the only one I have right now until I can afford a tv...

The movies Ive been watching recentley include
Rachel getting married
Fame
Nick and Norahs infinite playlist
The boat that rocked
..and another one I cant remember the name of but will probably spring to mind at a later date...

So the job hunting goes on.
The other day I applied to B&Q and the application process was sooooooo tedious....I had to rate myself out of 1-5 from a variety of adjectives such as "generous, kind and sensitive" how stupid why do they need to know that..I havent heard a thing back from them either.
Im literally applying EVERYWHERE now....grr I hope I can get something =/

And also Ive decided I want to be a primary school teacher...seriously. I think its the right thing for me to do....Id be a professional and be on a good salary a year....and I love kids anyway. I would actually go to uni and do it too....but it means going back to some college (not shitty new college) and doing a BTEC or A-levels. Well I know that I hate the whole A-level world and Ive always loved Media so Ive applied to do a BTEC national diploma in Media Production at stafford college next year....its ages away yet so I need to earn some money in the mean time because Im always in London with my gorgeous boyfriend..

Speaking of London , Im going down this friday and staying until Tuesday to see my Jamie <3 It feels like a lifetime since I last saw him... we've been going through a rough patch lately but all is OK now... I love him so much :)

Its still before 4 in the morning and Im still not feeling like I wanna crash and go to sleep...argh my body clock is seriously messed up Im telling you. It feels like time is just passing me by here, I wanna do something with my life!!!

Tomorrow Im going into my mums school to sit in with the receptions for the afternoon, just so I can meet the kids I'll be working with next thursday for my final assessment. Then I'll be qualified and nvq 2 will be mine. Not like Im gonna do anything with it, after all that. *sigh* Unless I find an AWESOME job as a kids club leader or something...3 hours a day aha. Oh well It will come in handy if I wanna be a teacher!!

Miss Tomlinson

I can see it now :P

I'd get those kids in order

Hmm Still not feeling tired and its coming up to 3:45 in the morning......

Bonfire night on thursday, seems to be a popular date for peoples birthdays on facebook as I have a whole list of them on my homepage!!!

Signing off now, hopefully Heather singing lullabys and nice thoughts of Jamie will make me sleepy

Goodnight