Went to bed at 4am last night. Stupid right? Fact is I couldn't sleep and felt sick from all the christmas food I'd ate. Hehe. I woke up at 1 today and dragged my feet downstairs, and still managed to eat another roast dinner. Mmm.
Had a shower and lazed around for a bit...then Mum and Dad announced we were going to Comet to look at the sales. Boxing Day Sales = Manic. We went into Comet and Uhm-ed and Arr-ed at TV's for David and Sam, and I was told a Netbook "wasn't necessary" so decided to go for an amazing black classic ipod ....120GB of pure love. Its so sexy, and I got a speaker with it too which is really HQ and a metal case =D Rachey is a very happy bunny. She is listening to "Nemo" right now on it =D
So yeah, David and Sam got a tv each...32" one. Like half price from some ridiculous figure...they are awesome.
Christmas ROCKS <3
But, I have to work tomorrow ='( Sucks.
Friday, 26 December 2008
Thursday, 25 December 2008
Monday, 22 December 2008
2 trolleys full
...Of christmas food shopping : I fully expect to be 10 stone bigger by December 26th.
Woke up at 10 today, really really tired. Didn't get a shower and then went up to the dry cleaners and Somerfield with Mum. We had to take my coat and scarf to be cleaned because whilst in the carol service at church last night, I was being dripped on by boiling hot candle wax. Not impressed!
After literally fighting for a parking space we went into Somerfield. Yeah...So we managed to fill about 2 trolleys full this morning of everything from Shloer to Pigs-in-a-blanket sausages for christmas, and we did go a little mad, but my mum's friend gave us a discount saving us about £30 lol. Still pricey though.
Came back home, had lunch, did not a lot else really. Im just sat here listening to Dark Passion Play, feeling hungry and very bored. Where is everyone? Hardly anyone is online.
Im now listening/singing to Sahara by Nightwish. Oh! And I bought the Wicked soundtrack from HMV yesterday for £8...bargain. So much for christmas shopping for others.....that was for myself ;)
Should be going to Waitrose soon to get puddings for christmas day, and to get Dad a christmas present lol. Hope he likes chocolate.....
Rach-is-bored.com
Woke up at 10 today, really really tired. Didn't get a shower and then went up to the dry cleaners and Somerfield with Mum. We had to take my coat and scarf to be cleaned because whilst in the carol service at church last night, I was being dripped on by boiling hot candle wax. Not impressed!
After literally fighting for a parking space we went into Somerfield. Yeah...So we managed to fill about 2 trolleys full this morning of everything from Shloer to Pigs-in-a-blanket sausages for christmas, and we did go a little mad, but my mum's friend gave us a discount saving us about £30 lol. Still pricey though.
Came back home, had lunch, did not a lot else really. Im just sat here listening to Dark Passion Play, feeling hungry and very bored. Where is everyone? Hardly anyone is online.
Im now listening/singing to Sahara by Nightwish. Oh! And I bought the Wicked soundtrack from HMV yesterday for £8...bargain. So much for christmas shopping for others.....that was for myself ;)
Should be going to Waitrose soon to get puddings for christmas day, and to get Dad a christmas present lol. Hope he likes chocolate.....
Rach-is-bored.com
Sunday, 21 December 2008
Harmonizing - Clocks.
Coldplay - Clocks
I can harmonize to this song...
Mum and I were driving back from Derby, and it was nice us singing together...
Love this song..
I can harmonize to this song...
Mum and I were driving back from Derby, and it was nice us singing together...
Love this song..
Put it all to the back of your mind.
That's what I need to do. Put it all at the back of my mind. Don't worry, Don't stress and Don't dwell on things. It's christmas in 4 days. Christmas ....Time for sharing, warmth, love, celebrating and thanking. Happy times. Never mind the presents. Let's look forward to that.
I awoke to the sound of my Mum entering my room, switching on my lamp and asking for the hairdryer at 7:50am this morning. I had managed to fall asleep just 5 hours earlier, and suprisingly didn't throw something at my mum to let me sleep, or shout abuse at her either. That sounds awful, but you should see me in the morning. Well, I think anyone is like that when they have just been awoken. But anyway, this time I was calm..I just lay in bed and played on my Driving Theory Test game on my DS before jumping into the shower at eight a.m.
We set off for Derby at about half 8, and arrived at Cannock Mcdonalds and I begged mum for a double sausage and egg mcmuffin meal with a hash brown and hot chocolate. Yeah, I'm greedy...but I was also starving. We batted down the A38 to Derby and at about 10 we got to Westfield =]. I love it there. It's a state of the art , 1 year old shopping center ...or is it 2? Anyway, we did loads of shopping, spent like half an hour in the Yankee Candle shop...and ate muffins and espresso's in costa coffee. Mmmm, this is the life.
After like 2 hours of shopping, escaping the nattering Gregg's Lady...and a costly parking fee we went up to Belper to see my great aunt Joyce. She's got Altziemers, and Im not going to talk too much about it on here cause frankly it depresses me...
We visited my great uncle Eric who is 76 and seems to know everything about the technological world, and has a better TV than us!...Whose catching who up now??
After visiting yet more people, including my mum's cousins house...which is like a minature Chatsworth (Yeah, big stately home in Derbyshire). We made our way home, and stopped off for some dinner at Seven Wells. Mmm Lasagne.
Got home, hung my new Monsoon decorations on the tree and then played with Max =] Poor Max , his leg isnt very well =[
So yeah, that was my day. I keep changing my mind about what I want for christmas though, I mean its the 21st now so I better make my mind up. But I have gone from an Ipod Classic, to an Xbox 360...to a TV...to ...finally. A camcorder. Sony Handycam DVD one! Woop =]
And if you havent noticed , I'm feeling much cheerier now. Things are looking up, and I prefer to be like this..not in my "I hate the world" mood. Its not me, and its not good.
Note to self : It's christmas....cheer up duck!
That is all.
I awoke to the sound of my Mum entering my room, switching on my lamp and asking for the hairdryer at 7:50am this morning. I had managed to fall asleep just 5 hours earlier, and suprisingly didn't throw something at my mum to let me sleep, or shout abuse at her either. That sounds awful, but you should see me in the morning. Well, I think anyone is like that when they have just been awoken. But anyway, this time I was calm..I just lay in bed and played on my Driving Theory Test game on my DS before jumping into the shower at eight a.m.
We set off for Derby at about half 8, and arrived at Cannock Mcdonalds and I begged mum for a double sausage and egg mcmuffin meal with a hash brown and hot chocolate. Yeah, I'm greedy...but I was also starving. We batted down the A38 to Derby and at about 10 we got to Westfield =]. I love it there. It's a state of the art , 1 year old shopping center ...or is it 2? Anyway, we did loads of shopping, spent like half an hour in the Yankee Candle shop...and ate muffins and espresso's in costa coffee. Mmmm, this is the life.
After like 2 hours of shopping, escaping the nattering Gregg's Lady...and a costly parking fee we went up to Belper to see my great aunt Joyce. She's got Altziemers, and Im not going to talk too much about it on here cause frankly it depresses me...
We visited my great uncle Eric who is 76 and seems to know everything about the technological world, and has a better TV than us!...Whose catching who up now??
After visiting yet more people, including my mum's cousins house...which is like a minature Chatsworth (Yeah, big stately home in Derbyshire). We made our way home, and stopped off for some dinner at Seven Wells. Mmm Lasagne.
Got home, hung my new Monsoon decorations on the tree and then played with Max =] Poor Max , his leg isnt very well =[
So yeah, that was my day. I keep changing my mind about what I want for christmas though, I mean its the 21st now so I better make my mind up. But I have gone from an Ipod Classic, to an Xbox 360...to a TV...to ...finally. A camcorder. Sony Handycam DVD one! Woop =]
And if you havent noticed , I'm feeling much cheerier now. Things are looking up, and I prefer to be like this..not in my "I hate the world" mood. Its not me, and its not good.
Note to self : It's christmas....cheer up duck!
That is all.
Thursday, 18 December 2008
Wednesday, 17 December 2008
Pass the tissues
I think ive gone through more than 1000 tissues now this week. Stupid flu, making my eyes water, nose sniffle and making me feel weak and weary.
I want to go christmas shopping desperatley, I mean I've bought nothing for Mum or Dad and need to do it soonish otherwise it will be christmas eve by the time Im wrapping up their presents....So better get a move on. Trouble is I cant, not yet...not when Im feeling this awful. *sigh*
Ive spent the majority of the day under my duvet on the sofa watching property programmes like Country House Rescue and A Place By The Sea. Yeah, Im cool.
My brother's dont seem to understand that I am ill, I cant do a lot else except keeping warm and drinking disgusting hot blackcurrant drinks and blowing my nose every 5 seconds. They think Im sciving and that. Grrrrr.....Brothers -_-
Driving Lesson on Friday...If im well enough. He'll probably make me do reversing again and 3 point turns...which are quite fun but on the last one I managed to hit the curb. Nevertheless Im sure I'll be alright to drive..
Got nothing planned for this week, except that cause Im not well. Just typing this I feel like Im in a different world, and Im just watching myself type. I feel so tired all the time, and weak. No energy, and even Relentless energy drink doesnt help. It sucks.
Ah Yes I want one of these for christmas..
Or one of these
Yeah, the list goes on LOL
Racheyyyy
Tuesday, 16 December 2008
50th post. Feels 50 x worse.
Oh I love life.
Happy 50th post Rachel. We're proud you managed to achieve 50 posts. Hooray.
Just to warn everyone, anyone , you . This is a rant post. Because I am in a ranting mood. Life is pretty crap right now.
I had someone, until they left me. So thanks a lot.
You know, I thought we had something special, we could have been together for a long time. Obviously you didnt feel the same, and Rachel had her heart broken once again. Im giving up on love now. I be myself and no one comes running to me with arms open wide shouting "I love you for who you are! Nothing is impossible, I'll do anything for you!". No, It doesnt happen.
Ive got the flu. I've been stuck inside since Sunday with a streaming cold, sore throat, aching body and runny nose. It sucks and I cant wait until it goes which better be soon as christmas is around the corner.
Oh yes, and Im also fed up of people judging others all the bloody time. Bitch Bitch Bitch BITCHES. Thats all girls are, I hate it. No one can just accept the fact that people arent perfect, and one minor flaw doesnt mean you hate someone! Give people chances! Ive always been taught and have been brought up to look after the people who are quiet or need a friend. I appreciate everyone nevermind if they arent perfect. And who is perfect? Yeh so stop critisising my friends and leave us alone.
Also the EMA people can go screw themselves. And college cause they only are paying me £60 worth of EMA the WHOLE time I was at college (Sept-End of Oct). Thanks a lot.
Not been working either cause stupid guy stole my job until the 27th of December. So had no money, not seen my work friends and its completley unfair.
So yeah life sucks
Why cant things go right for a change? Honestly! Its like a chain of unfortunate events in my life!
The times I encourage people to be positive, happy and enjoy life seem to be working in reverse and its now ME who is suffering.
:'( I dont like this
at all.
Please can I just have a nice guy who will stick with me no matter what??
Thats all I want
Happy 50th post Rachel. We're proud you managed to achieve 50 posts. Hooray.
Just to warn everyone, anyone , you . This is a rant post. Because I am in a ranting mood. Life is pretty crap right now.
I had someone, until they left me. So thanks a lot.
You know, I thought we had something special, we could have been together for a long time. Obviously you didnt feel the same, and Rachel had her heart broken once again. Im giving up on love now. I be myself and no one comes running to me with arms open wide shouting "I love you for who you are! Nothing is impossible, I'll do anything for you!". No, It doesnt happen.
Ive got the flu. I've been stuck inside since Sunday with a streaming cold, sore throat, aching body and runny nose. It sucks and I cant wait until it goes which better be soon as christmas is around the corner.
Oh yes, and Im also fed up of people judging others all the bloody time. Bitch Bitch Bitch BITCHES. Thats all girls are, I hate it. No one can just accept the fact that people arent perfect, and one minor flaw doesnt mean you hate someone! Give people chances! Ive always been taught and have been brought up to look after the people who are quiet or need a friend. I appreciate everyone nevermind if they arent perfect. And who is perfect? Yeh so stop critisising my friends and leave us alone.
Also the EMA people can go screw themselves. And college cause they only are paying me £60 worth of EMA the WHOLE time I was at college (Sept-End of Oct). Thanks a lot.
Not been working either cause stupid guy stole my job until the 27th of December. So had no money, not seen my work friends and its completley unfair.
So yeah life sucks
Why cant things go right for a change? Honestly! Its like a chain of unfortunate events in my life!
The times I encourage people to be positive, happy and enjoy life seem to be working in reverse and its now ME who is suffering.
:'( I dont like this
at all.
Please can I just have a nice guy who will stick with me no matter what??
Thats all I want
Tuesday, 9 December 2008
Yeah I cant write songs
Where am I if I am not with you?
Frozen memories stay so true
I look back, back into my life
And I see, I see
There was hope
There was faith
There was love
Its still the same
There is all the things
That I imagine
But what we are
Is still so tragic
Nothing more
Nothing less
I can feel your love surround me
But was it real?
But was it real?
Cheese.
Frozen memories stay so true
I look back, back into my life
And I see, I see
There was hope
There was faith
There was love
Its still the same
There is all the things
That I imagine
But what we are
Is still so tragic
Nothing more
Nothing less
I can feel your love surround me
But was it real?
But was it real?
Cheese.
Gloop...
is a rather fun thing that we make at training :D Its solid when you hold it , and then when you let go its a liquid :D Its so cool...we have so much fun :P
Yeah training is good, Im so happy to be finally settled in something...I've made new friends and the subject is really my kind of thing.
Well, today we had to learn about child protection and that was very upsetting... =( Our teacher Michelle read us the Baby P story and it was so sad, she was crying by the end of it and I felt like crying too. How could a mother do such awful things to her own child? Makes me sick.
So the day dragged on and we finished at about 3, then Mum came and picked me up and we went to New College (WHY?!..You're thinking) . Well I had to sign some forms about EMA and I just stayed in the car, not going back in that crappy place and scared of going back there so..yeah. We went back home and went to woolworths where everything is so cheap and theres basically no stock in there, heck I bought a christmas card for 70p!. Then I went to the hairdressers and Im getting my hair cut on Friday...wasn't happen when they revealed the price ..hmph. Went to Somerfield and got some stuff for tea, and I bought Sams christmas present haha :P Its cool. Wont write it on here though ;) Secret stuff.
So yah, that was basically my day. Driving again on Friday, Getting on a train to see Mark on Saturday, christmas stuff on Sunday . As for the rest of this week, just training again...making posters woop woop! :P
Not much to report to be honest, Im absoloutley shattered.
Waiting on my new shoes, belt, Nicky's present, Mark's present and other stuff in the post... HURRY UP lol
*sings* Frozen? But what can I do? *sings*
Yeah training is good, Im so happy to be finally settled in something...I've made new friends and the subject is really my kind of thing.
Well, today we had to learn about child protection and that was very upsetting... =( Our teacher Michelle read us the Baby P story and it was so sad, she was crying by the end of it and I felt like crying too. How could a mother do such awful things to her own child? Makes me sick.
So the day dragged on and we finished at about 3, then Mum came and picked me up and we went to New College (WHY?!..You're thinking) . Well I had to sign some forms about EMA and I just stayed in the car, not going back in that crappy place and scared of going back there so..yeah. We went back home and went to woolworths where everything is so cheap and theres basically no stock in there, heck I bought a christmas card for 70p!. Then I went to the hairdressers and Im getting my hair cut on Friday...wasn't happen when they revealed the price ..hmph. Went to Somerfield and got some stuff for tea, and I bought Sams christmas present haha :P Its cool. Wont write it on here though ;) Secret stuff.
So yah, that was basically my day. Driving again on Friday, Getting on a train to see Mark on Saturday, christmas stuff on Sunday . As for the rest of this week, just training again...making posters woop woop! :P
Not much to report to be honest, Im absoloutley shattered.
Waiting on my new shoes, belt, Nicky's present, Mark's present and other stuff in the post... HURRY UP lol
*sings* Frozen? But what can I do? *sings*
Saturday, 6 December 2008
Stress
You experience , feel, see , meet it everywhere...yes that human emotion called "stress"
I am blogging about the word stress as it is the emotion I feel at the moment.
Take "The X factor" for example . Hype. Hype. Hype. I can't begin to imagine the levels of stress that surrounds that show, not just for the finalists giving it their all to win on the huge glossy stage performing in front of millions...but for the people who sit backstage buzzing around computers and LCD screens without stopping, to ensure everything flows smoothy. I can't imagine how intense that must be, getting everything exactly right...& you're live on air.
My friend's uncle is the technical director for the x factor, and wow do I salute you.
Today I haven't felt great. Tetchy is more the word. I'm tired, thats why. Its my own fault 'cause I don't go to bed until the early hours of the morning...and it's midnight now. I just can't seem to get to bed early.
I don't like feeling like this, I get things wrong, I react to everything so sensitively...part of being over tired I guess.
Today has been so bloody boring. Did absoloutley nothing, so earlier on I decided to escape the house and walk Max. It was around 4:30pm..just around the time it goes dark. The sunset was beautiful as always, and it was freezing but It was almost like I wanted to be cold...to be refreshed. The feeling of walking over frozen grass is unusual but so very wintery. Speaking of winter and frost, where is this darn snow they keep going on about? I hate the metrocenter sometimes, they dont have a clue where shropshire is and they just forcast everything for London or whatever...they said we would get snow this week but nothing happened.
I've realised I do need to stop worrying about every stupid little thing. Not that I didnt realise this long ago...Its just so hard to stop. Whenever I feel unsure , I will worry about it. Whenever I feel I have done something wrong, or upset somebody (even if I havent) I will worry. Its part of being me and I hate it, I need to stop stressing out...It does no good for me.
I remember when I had to admit to not being able to swim at the age of 10 in front of my class, and it really really got to me. I did do the lessons but was so worried about it, people seeing me in a swimsuit and that. In the end I did manage to do my 200m , and all that worrying was for nothing really. I try and put my worries behind me, and think to myself "its never as bad as you make out to be" ...that seems to calm me. But honestly, If I could change ...the first thing would be not to worry so much.
Stress.Stress.Stress.Stress
Blogging helps cure stress? Does it?
[Rachel he loves you, dont be so hard on yourself......I love you ...I love you.... I love you ... :)]
Im going to a christening tomorrow for baby Finlay. Starts at 10am in the morning and will have to leave the house at 9:30 *cries*. I cant be bothered and after we're going to the swan at forton and having a carvery, and I have work to do and ARGH STRESS.
>.< I want him to hold me, I want it to be Ok, I want him to be here now <3
I am blogging about the word stress as it is the emotion I feel at the moment.
Take "The X factor" for example . Hype. Hype. Hype. I can't begin to imagine the levels of stress that surrounds that show, not just for the finalists giving it their all to win on the huge glossy stage performing in front of millions...but for the people who sit backstage buzzing around computers and LCD screens without stopping, to ensure everything flows smoothy. I can't imagine how intense that must be, getting everything exactly right...& you're live on air.
My friend's uncle is the technical director for the x factor, and wow do I salute you.
Today I haven't felt great. Tetchy is more the word. I'm tired, thats why. Its my own fault 'cause I don't go to bed until the early hours of the morning...and it's midnight now. I just can't seem to get to bed early.
I don't like feeling like this, I get things wrong, I react to everything so sensitively...part of being over tired I guess.
Today has been so bloody boring. Did absoloutley nothing, so earlier on I decided to escape the house and walk Max. It was around 4:30pm..just around the time it goes dark. The sunset was beautiful as always, and it was freezing but It was almost like I wanted to be cold...to be refreshed. The feeling of walking over frozen grass is unusual but so very wintery. Speaking of winter and frost, where is this darn snow they keep going on about? I hate the metrocenter sometimes, they dont have a clue where shropshire is and they just forcast everything for London or whatever...they said we would get snow this week but nothing happened.
I've realised I do need to stop worrying about every stupid little thing. Not that I didnt realise this long ago...Its just so hard to stop. Whenever I feel unsure , I will worry about it. Whenever I feel I have done something wrong, or upset somebody (even if I havent) I will worry. Its part of being me and I hate it, I need to stop stressing out...It does no good for me.
I remember when I had to admit to not being able to swim at the age of 10 in front of my class, and it really really got to me. I did do the lessons but was so worried about it, people seeing me in a swimsuit and that. In the end I did manage to do my 200m , and all that worrying was for nothing really. I try and put my worries behind me, and think to myself "its never as bad as you make out to be" ...that seems to calm me. But honestly, If I could change ...the first thing would be not to worry so much.
Blogging helps cure stress? Does it?
[Rachel he loves you, dont be so hard on yourself......I love you ...I love you.... I love you ... :)]
Im going to a christening tomorrow for baby Finlay. Starts at 10am in the morning and will have to leave the house at 9:30 *cries*. I cant be bothered and after we're going to the swan at forton and having a carvery, and I have work to do and ARGH STRESS.
>.< I want him to hold me, I want it to be Ok, I want him to be here now <3
Lazy saturday + New Look
2 words, Lazy Day. And it isnt even half way though the day yet...
It's like changing rooms in my house, mess/stuff everywhere, mattresses shoved in my room as well as other things....sigh. Im too lazy to do my assignment which should be nearly completed by now...but how I can I with all this distraction? *sigh*
Im sat here, eating maoams + talking to Mark...whilst listening to what have you done by within temptation :) Sounds so fun but it isn't lol.
Something interesting better happen today, otherwise Im gonna go insane.... -)
Oh and I hope you like my new look blog....Nicky inspired me for a change of look...
Rachel
It's like changing rooms in my house, mess/stuff everywhere, mattresses shoved in my room as well as other things....sigh. Im too lazy to do my assignment which should be nearly completed by now...but how I can I with all this distraction? *sigh*
Im sat here, eating maoams + talking to Mark...whilst listening to what have you done by within temptation :) Sounds so fun but it isn't lol.
Something interesting better happen today, otherwise Im gonna go insane.... -)
Oh and I hope you like my new look blog....Nicky inspired me for a change of look...
Rachel
Friday, 5 December 2008
The week that was..
What a week. Honestly, so much has happened this week I dont know if I want to tell you all about it, but here goes.
Ive been at training most of the week, making posters, coping with the rude new people, slipping over and hurting myself - Yeah thats the training side of the week. I still have loads to go on my Unit 1 assignment and was supposed to be cracking on with it today until...today.
On wednesday I was told by work that I had no job until the 27th of December which absoloutley sucks, cause Im supposed to work every saturday and a new guy has taken all of my hours...so I have no money coming in. I complained to my bastard of a manager and he just said "someone has to go"...Funny as it is always me...He's always hated me. Im job hunting, cant cope with their crappy management. It's totally unfair treatment, and me and this other guy have worked the same shifts before. So now I have no job, nothing to do on a saturday. Well, until next saturday ;).
So that was that, and yesterday I didnt go into training cause I didnt feel well. My arm/sides hurt from where I slipped over and felt crap tbh. I missed decorating cookies with icing apparently :( Oh well. We are making gloop (cornflower and water) on Monday so that should be fun, I havent missed out completley! Oh, I really dont miss college one bit :)
So yeh today, I had a bit of a traumatic time tbh. Woke up and had cramp in my leg, sprung out of bed in pain as you do, and managed to stop it. Went to the bathroom and felt awfully sick, and my sight started to go, felt white and dizzy. So I called Mum and my head was swinging backwards and forwards..."Mum, I feel faint!!"...Mum was about to walk out of the front door and she came rushing to me. I felt awful, she kept talking to me and I could hear her but it was distant...I was fainting. I moved myself out of the bathroom and kinda collapsed but put myself into the recovery position and felt Ok after a few minutes. It was awful, and I felt awful, I looked awful..my lips were blue and I was very very pale. Dave got me some relentless and I drank that.... *sigh*....Im Ok now, But that was so horrible...and loosing control of your body is something no one wants to go through.
So after that trauma, I cancelled my driving lesson...and have just chilled out most of the day cause I still dont feel 100%. I bought some new shoes off grindstore though :) yay.
So yes, Ive had a bit of a hectic week. The fainting just topped it all off to be honest, bleh I feel crap..
New blog header by the way :) Sharon rules always.
Rachel xxxx
Ive been at training most of the week, making posters, coping with the rude new people, slipping over and hurting myself - Yeah thats the training side of the week. I still have loads to go on my Unit 1 assignment and was supposed to be cracking on with it today until...today.
On wednesday I was told by work that I had no job until the 27th of December which absoloutley sucks, cause Im supposed to work every saturday and a new guy has taken all of my hours...so I have no money coming in. I complained to my bastard of a manager and he just said "someone has to go"...Funny as it is always me...He's always hated me. Im job hunting, cant cope with their crappy management. It's totally unfair treatment, and me and this other guy have worked the same shifts before. So now I have no job, nothing to do on a saturday. Well, until next saturday ;).
So that was that, and yesterday I didnt go into training cause I didnt feel well. My arm/sides hurt from where I slipped over and felt crap tbh. I missed decorating cookies with icing apparently :( Oh well. We are making gloop (cornflower and water) on Monday so that should be fun, I havent missed out completley! Oh, I really dont miss college one bit :)
So yeh today, I had a bit of a traumatic time tbh. Woke up and had cramp in my leg, sprung out of bed in pain as you do, and managed to stop it. Went to the bathroom and felt awfully sick, and my sight started to go, felt white and dizzy. So I called Mum and my head was swinging backwards and forwards..."Mum, I feel faint!!"...Mum was about to walk out of the front door and she came rushing to me. I felt awful, she kept talking to me and I could hear her but it was distant...I was fainting. I moved myself out of the bathroom and kinda collapsed but put myself into the recovery position and felt Ok after a few minutes. It was awful, and I felt awful, I looked awful..my lips were blue and I was very very pale. Dave got me some relentless and I drank that.... *sigh*....Im Ok now, But that was so horrible...and loosing control of your body is something no one wants to go through.
So after that trauma, I cancelled my driving lesson...and have just chilled out most of the day cause I still dont feel 100%. I bought some new shoes off grindstore though :) yay.
So yes, Ive had a bit of a hectic week. The fainting just topped it all off to be honest, bleh I feel crap..
New blog header by the way :) Sharon rules always.
Rachel xxxx
Tuesday, 2 December 2008
Ice comes at a price.
Woke today in pitch black darkness. Guess that isn't going to change anytime soon, being winter and all.
Decided to straighten my hair, well attempt to..I managed it and it looked nice so I was like yay :) Luckily I didnt suffer with another migraine today so I count myself lucky, If I stay out of the cold I'll be fine.
Power walked to the bus stop in the freezing cold, jumped on the bus which was late...no suprise there...and who was on it? Not only my so called friends and their little ring leader who insisted on shouting abuse down the bus, I had to put up with that for half an hour. Joy.
Got to training earlyish, the lift was working for once. Zara was late and basically the whole day consisted of walking to Fitness First twice , listening to mouthy 19 year olds talk about how labour isnt that bad, coping with complete boredom and slipping on ice on the way home. I really hurt myself, and my knee is all bruised...:( .
I got home after seeing Sophie on the bus, and just stayed at home all evening listening to Sash Songs ...anthems of my childhood. I used to love music like that, I want his greatest hits album now.
I hope tomorrow will be OK cause we have another 5 people joining our group and its gonna be all over the place, Whitney , Aimee , Rosemary and Rachel are turning into some really great friends of mine and have been helping me and nice to me since day 1...We're decorating the room for christmas tomorrow :)
I feel so happy with my life at the moment. I've got an amazing boyfriend, an awesome new course which is going to get me such a rewarding job, I'm learning to drive and getting better week by week and I finally feel accepted and happy. This year has been one of the longest, I've faced new challenges, realised I am able to do Maths (I got a C at GCSE)...Made new friends, lost old friends...found someone who actually appreciates and loves me...and let me tell you...that is so amazing!
I feel I have changed as a person, I can make my own decisions much more easily. I dont need to listen to what other people say and automatically accept that as right for me. Im mature and confident, and I love who I am growing to become.
Wow, what a speech.
Decided to straighten my hair, well attempt to..I managed it and it looked nice so I was like yay :) Luckily I didnt suffer with another migraine today so I count myself lucky, If I stay out of the cold I'll be fine.
Power walked to the bus stop in the freezing cold, jumped on the bus which was late...no suprise there...and who was on it? Not only my so called friends and their little ring leader who insisted on shouting abuse down the bus, I had to put up with that for half an hour. Joy.
Got to training earlyish, the lift was working for once. Zara was late and basically the whole day consisted of walking to Fitness First twice , listening to mouthy 19 year olds talk about how labour isnt that bad, coping with complete boredom and slipping on ice on the way home. I really hurt myself, and my knee is all bruised...:( .
I got home after seeing Sophie on the bus, and just stayed at home all evening listening to Sash Songs ...anthems of my childhood. I used to love music like that, I want his greatest hits album now.
I hope tomorrow will be OK cause we have another 5 people joining our group and its gonna be all over the place, Whitney , Aimee , Rosemary and Rachel are turning into some really great friends of mine and have been helping me and nice to me since day 1...We're decorating the room for christmas tomorrow :)
I feel so happy with my life at the moment. I've got an amazing boyfriend, an awesome new course which is going to get me such a rewarding job, I'm learning to drive and getting better week by week and I finally feel accepted and happy. This year has been one of the longest, I've faced new challenges, realised I am able to do Maths (I got a C at GCSE)...Made new friends, lost old friends...found someone who actually appreciates and loves me...and let me tell you...that is so amazing!
I feel I have changed as a person, I can make my own decisions much more easily. I dont need to listen to what other people say and automatically accept that as right for me. Im mature and confident, and I love who I am growing to become.
Wow, what a speech.
Its going to snow on wednesday and I cant wait for christmas!
For Nicole.
Nicky, keep in there sunshine. Dont worry about mocks, dont worry about being ill, that is not your fault. You are awesome and I love you like you are my own sister. You are always there for me and you keep me going when I feel down and low. We will always be best friends and I know it :) I love you my twilight fanatic nightwish obsessed best friend/sister.
Fin
Monday, 1 December 2008
My funky inner hair colour!
| Your Hair Should Be Blue |
 You're a risk taker with an eye to the future. |
Frozen - Voyage
Sung by Sharon den Adel of Within Temptation
Never look back 'cause it hurts.
My heart is so cold I feel the frost,
Never look back.
I feel the darkness on my shoulder,
The frost is in my heart.
So cold my hair is frozen,
Touching my skin, my flesh.
Sometimes I regret I had to do,
'Cause our love was somehow true.
But I had to leave you,
For the sake of the moods.
Frozen tears turn into my skin.
Frozen memories of you.
Sometimes I see your face,
As pure as you are mine.
I feel the darkness on my shoulder,
The frost is in my heart.
So cold my hair is frozen,
Touching my skin, my flesh.
Never look back because it hurts.
My heart is so cold I feel the frost,
Never look back.
I feel the darkness on my shoulder, the frost is in my heart
Frozen- Voyage
Frozen, thats what I am. Do you know how cold it is outside? Wherever you are in the world right now dont plan a holiday to England at this time of year unless you want to be completley freezing.
I woke up today at about 6:30...I wasn't supposed to be awake then so with that happy feeling you get when you can go back to sleep for another hour , I dozed back off to sleep.
After getting ready which takes absoloutley ages, I wandered downstairs and looked out the window. A shower of frost had been sprinkled above everything, watched over by a crisp, light blue early morning sky. It is, after all, the first of December...and what a perfect scene to start the day. Nevertheless it was absoloutley freezing outside! I drank my coffee and did the stupid thing of having cold apple juice soon after, forcing my head into uncontrolable pain and leaving me with a horrible migraine....and I had to be at training for 9:30. I lay down and soothed my aching head with a heat pad...I didn't feel well at all =(
The pain wore off and I got into training late after mum dropped me off. 3 new people had joined our group and they seem nice, we learnt about planning activities for children between 0-5 and next week we get to try some of the activities ourselves and make posters....How I don't miss college!
We finished at around 12, and I finished part 2 of my assignment...I looked out of the window and snow flakes began to fall...I felt all christmassy.
I got home on the bus and saw my friend on there, we had a good chat. You see everyone on the 481 these days, its like where people choose to hang out or something lol. A moving chill out zone maybe? Oh and the usual OAP's who take up all the seats...Bless them.
I got in after escaping icy rain and Mum was wrapping christmas presents. The countdown begins...!
I haven't got a lot planned for today, and I dont feel like doing anything. I certainly dont want my migraine coming on again, I just feel so exhausted and hungry...
*Looks out of the window*....The sky has been that snowy, icy blue colour all day...Its magical.
Frozen, thats what I am. Do you know how cold it is outside? Wherever you are in the world right now dont plan a holiday to England at this time of year unless you want to be completley freezing.
I woke up today at about 6:30...I wasn't supposed to be awake then so with that happy feeling you get when you can go back to sleep for another hour , I dozed back off to sleep.
After getting ready which takes absoloutley ages, I wandered downstairs and looked out the window. A shower of frost had been sprinkled above everything, watched over by a crisp, light blue early morning sky. It is, after all, the first of December...and what a perfect scene to start the day. Nevertheless it was absoloutley freezing outside! I drank my coffee and did the stupid thing of having cold apple juice soon after, forcing my head into uncontrolable pain and leaving me with a horrible migraine....and I had to be at training for 9:30. I lay down and soothed my aching head with a heat pad...I didn't feel well at all =(
The pain wore off and I got into training late after mum dropped me off. 3 new people had joined our group and they seem nice, we learnt about planning activities for children between 0-5 and next week we get to try some of the activities ourselves and make posters....How I don't miss college!
We finished at around 12, and I finished part 2 of my assignment...I looked out of the window and snow flakes began to fall...I felt all christmassy.
I got home on the bus and saw my friend on there, we had a good chat. You see everyone on the 481 these days, its like where people choose to hang out or something lol. A moving chill out zone maybe? Oh and the usual OAP's who take up all the seats...Bless them.
I got in after escaping icy rain and Mum was wrapping christmas presents. The countdown begins...!
I haven't got a lot planned for today, and I dont feel like doing anything. I certainly dont want my migraine coming on again, I just feel so exhausted and hungry...
*Looks out of the window*....The sky has been that snowy, icy blue colour all day...Its magical.
...Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow.....
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